A New Family

Ripley, Travolta & I have decided that we'd all like to try again, but this time the deadlines December. Ripley is due insem at the end of this week. I'm going to wait until after holiday to give my body time to recover. So here goes back on the rollercoaster ride again!! I'm quite excited by the idea, but am worried it will go horribly wrong again, but as long as we stick to the cut off point we should be fine.

Went for the internal scan yesterday at the hospital, everythings ok which is good, tho I'm still bleeding but it's getting lighter now. Ripley & I are thinking of having a break from trying. We have a big holiday booked in 6 weeks time to go to Canada for 2 weeks. We will then talk once we get back to see if we want to try again or whether to call it quits.

Ripley's storing up for a long post, but otherwise we may not post again till after our holiday (June). Good luck everyone else who's trying!

I'm still bleeding quite heavy, luckily I'm not at work due to the easter bank holiday weekend & don't have to be back until Wednesday, so least I get a chance to rest & recover before getting back into the daily grind. Ripley has been so tremendous & supportive. I feel so lucky & so loved. I couldn't have got through this whole ordeal without her. We are so gutted. We went shopping earlier & there's just so many babies & pregnant women about. I was queueing at a checkout & I was getting so angry because the shop assistant was so slow that I thought to myself that if anyone dared push, shove or talk to me I would just bark at them....luckily no-one did!! Ripley has been making sure that I have a dose of iron everyday, today we're having watercress soup for dinner...yum.

We found these sites useful:

Miscarriage Clinic

Miscarriage Association

5 days later & I'm still bleeding quite heavy, & it doesn't seem to ease off. The cramps were quite severe yesterday so I had to give in & take some pain killers. I feel quite tired & I just want this over with so I can move on, everytime I go to the loo it's a constant reminder on what could have been. It would have been 8 weeks tomorrow, but looking back I think it died a week or so before I started bleeding, as my symptons just dissapeared. I'm grateful that I lost it earlier than later tho, that gives me some comfort at least. Travolta came round last night & we had a drink or two, first time in months! He's been great but I don't think he can comprehend what I'm actually going through, I don't think men in general can. I will be having an internal scan on Wednesday afternoon to see if everythings gone, I'm not looking forward to this, but hopefully they'll tell me everythings fine.

I started bleeding on Tuesday afternoon. I phoned my doctors surgery & they told me to go to A&E as soon as possible. I was at work at the time so left pretty sharpish. Luckily I had told someone at work the week before that I was pregnant so they could cover for me. The doctors at the hospital was so nice & reassuring, & they didn't bat an eyelid that I had brought Ripley with me. They took a blood sample to test for my hcg levels & then the doctor did an internal examination to feel if everything was ok & to take a swab. Unfortunately the bleeding got heavier, and it turns out I am miscarrying. There is so little information about this - what happens to your body. I can't write it all down now, what's happening to me, but I will. It's quite a hard time for me, Ripley and Travolta. We're going to get together for a good cry tomorrow. I know in time we'll be alright.