Friday, December 22, 2006
That she isn't mad, and that her symptoms were real is somehow comforting. The loss is real but very painful. However, Travolta's kind and generous response to all this uncertainty and bad news has been tremendous - happy to be with us or leave us alone, putting Cagney's feelings before his own, and it must be hard to deal with this alone. Another reason why we made a perfect choice.
Plus he's a silver lining kind of guy. We now know his sperm and Cagney's egg met. Which means they can do again. Whether I can bear to go through 9 months feeling like I did for the last week I can't bear to think about right now.
Good luck, and feel free to BE MAD for awhile... it sucks to be so hyper-aware of ovulation timing that you have to catch the occasional chemical. Straights seem to miss out on the joy, have you noticed? Grr on them. Or grr on us?
Regardless, sorry this happened to YOU.